That Knight..

You came out of nowhere.
Shined your smile on me.
Gave me something I could've only hoped for.
You've given me the reason to believe.

I wonder where you are I wonder where you go..
but deep down inside love only knows.

What did you see in my eyes?
Did you feel the warmth of the tears I cried?
When you ask me where I am...
Did you really understand?

You told me not cry but do you know the reason why?
Do you know how much I love you?
Maybe you saw it..maybe it wasn't a second thought.
But all I know is that night my heart you fully got.

Now those words you said still run though my head.
My heart is so confused.
Was it out of love...or was I being used?
You called out my name and my soul took flight.
You blew my mind away when you came to me...that night.

So if you want to know how long I'll be here.
Count me in for forever and a day.
Loving you is all I know..
Giving you my all...is the only way.

The Performace...Of Our Lives.

Ok so one day I was lost in daydreams..and I saw this.

5 girls...Tamz, Jen, Tirzah, Lori, and Shanna. Road tripping it to a concert. But..what we were about to do..at that concert and meet and greet..would be beyond everyones imagination. For months..we all practiced for what would be the most awesome fan performace that NKOTB has ever seen! We had gotten everything set up before hand..we would decend the grand staircase..singing NKOTB..the moves..and all!

Song after song..we went through..trying to find the perfect one. I wanted a song in which we could divide up the parts..so that each guy was represented. STEP BY STEP was the right one. Because each step had the guys parts. Tamz was Danny, Jen was Donnie, Tirzah was Joe, Lori was Jon, and yes I chose Jordan. They all claim they can't sing so I took "THE VOICE"s parts. LOL We found the right outfits and hairstyles to go with our performance. Ok so I know most of us are Dub gals but I had to divide the guys parts up..5 girls...5 guys!!

The time had arrived...an announcer said "Ladies and Gentleman..please turn your attention to the staircase...we have a special performance for you." Everyone turned and looked up our way..the guys looked on...with surprised looks on their faces. In position..mic's in hand (yes we sang..no lip sync) The music started. We broke out every NKOTB dance move we could think of in our choreography. (IN UNISON) "Step by Step..Oh baby...gonna get to you girl..." We rocked that shit!! Everyone started singing and dancing right along with us! It was magical!

Then the best parts came...

(Tamz) "Step one..we can have lots of fun"
(Jen) "Step two..there's so much we can do.."
(Shanna) "Step three..its just you and me."
(Tirzah) "Step four..I can give you more."
(Lori) "Step five..Don't ya know that the time has arrived!"

WOW!! The guys were jamming right along with us! Everyone was dancing..singing...then the song came to its end..."Step by Step..Oh baby..Gonna get to you girl..." Through out the song...we had danced down the staircase. Everyone clapped and wooo'd!! The guys ran straight to us! We got lots of hugs and kisses from them...they told us how great we were..and they thanked us for such a heartfelt tribute. We were then escorted to the back...we had been invited to hang out w/the guys for the rest of the night!! Backstage..seats..everything!!!


Ok so this was just a lil daydream I had..but who say's we can't do this?!
Can we do it? YES WE CAN!!!!

It's love.....

I sit here crying tears.
Thinking about how much I've thought of you.
You've touched my heart for so many years.
I dont why I feel the way I do.

I wonder sometimes if only you knew me.
I dream about the day I get to hold you.
If you looked in my eyes..what would you see?
If I touched you..Would you feel the way I do?

Is this just an obsession thats out of control?
Am I dreaming these feelings or are they for real?
I'm afraid that when I hold you..I won't be able to let go.
Maybe this my destiny for its fate this love for you I feel.

Love comes...Love goes away.
But when it's real...nothing and no one can ever take it away.
Sometimes I feel crazy...but its not insanity..its not an obessessed fan.
Its a woman who's in love...with a man.

With The Music...I am Free.

When I'm feeling I've lost my mind.

When I feel that life can't get any worse.

I look in my heart and I find

A piece of my soul is in every melody every verse.

My heart melts My soul comes to life.

The pain and saddness withers away.

In all my struggles...My tragedy and strife.

The music finds me...and I know that I'll never fade.

When I write the words...When I lift up my voice in song.

I know that the within the music..I've found where I belong.

I sing for him..I sing for you.

I sing for a love that without one question or doubt is true.

I sing to find my freedom I sing to save my soul.

When I die...I hope that I'm remembered for just one thing.

My love for him...My love for music.

My passion to sing.

When words fail....the music always speaks.

Shanna Marie Behmke AKA JonsHeartSong AKA ShannaSings4Jon

My Wish For Jon

Jonathan,
I wish only for you to get to see this I've written so many now. I hope that you are recovering well, and I knew you'd make it through the surgery ok. You've inspired me to find myself again. I can't thank you enough for that. Your courage and your strength has given me the hope that one day I will face my own fears in life and conquer them. Well If you get to see this I hope that you take my words to heart because I truly do love and admire you. Get well soon!

I have wished and dreamed my whole life long to have one moment...just one song.

To look into your eyes and see you smile at me...that moment would forever set me free.

I never thought in my whole lifetime that a love like this..I would find.

Lost in sweet dreams of you every single night...It's only there I get to sing for Jon Knight.

Will I ever get that chance? Will I ever see the day?

When can hold him in my arms..and what would he say?

I know in my heart that this may never be..but I will not deny the dream.

My wish for you my dear..is for you to find love..and when you do..hold it near.

Don't ever lose hope..keep your faith and courage.

Let not one thing give you heartache or discourage.

I pray for your recovery...as hard as I prayed for your surgery.

For 20 years I've thought of you...

For 20 years..I've loved and admired you...

For 20 years...I've sang only for you.

If you knew me well enough you'd know...this love I have for you is a true and sincere love.

I'm not a crazy fan...I'm just a simple woman...That loves a simple man.

Dear Jon

Dear Jon,

I know you may never see this..You may never know..Just how much I love and admire you so.

To you..I'm just another fan...Just another messager out in twitterland.

I realize that there are millions of girls..women..feeling just the way I do.

If I could band them all together..This is what I'd do.

I'd have them all light a candle..and say a prayer for you.

I know that you worry..I know you are scared.

But that's just what makes you such an amazing man!

You overcame your fears...You dried up all your tears.

Came back to the stage...Steppin 5 once again.

So this is why I do all the I can.

To let you know how special you are..To let you know..that your always in my heart.

You've inspired me to become something more than I thought I could be.

I've overcame my own fears...You've made me feel free!

So Jon, I say this with all of my heart and soul...I will always love you.

And this love will continue to grow.

Everytime I lay my head down to dream...I'm up on stage..Holding your hand...

For its for you....that I sing.

I prayed for God to send me an angel...and he did.

BY: Shanna Marie Behmke

FOR MY LAB LADIES-WITH ALL MY LOVE

I am not without my faults...I am not a perfect being.

I was lost in my own little world...I felt I had no meaning.

My soul had been broken...My heart had stopped beating.

But something happened...A Miracle came my way.

When I found a greater love..Now I seize the day!

My life that seemed ever so drab..Became new and whole again..The day I found the Lab.

People who understand me..Women who never cease to amaze me!

You ladies will never know..What you mean to me.

For there are no words to describe...All this love and gratitude I feel for you inside.

BREAKER BREAKER and TUMBLEWEEDS..All your NKOTB stories.

We sing and we laugh...We Cry and We Fight..

But nothing can stop this...It just too right!

We have our differences...But one thing I know.

No matter what happens..This love will continue to grow.

Friendship like this...Can never die.

You make me laugh...You make me cry.

Moments in our lives that we can share together...

Chatting in the Lab...Always and Forever.

BY: Shanna Marie Behmke

JamminJeanette I look up to you..You're talent amazes me!

Tirza my ddubdog...We gonna keep rockin it all year long!

Jamie my sister..You crack me up! Cause you tell it like is..You don't give a f--k!

Devlz you fill my life with nasty thoughts LOL It's ok I still love you lots!

Kelly-Jessi-BabyGirl I wouldnt trade you in for anything in this world!

For anyone I forget to mention It's not because I don't love you.

When there are so many..It's hard for me to keep up! LMAO I'm old you know!

You're always in my thoughts...Always in my heart.

I Truly, Madly, Deeply...Love You All!!