It's love.....

I sit here crying tears.
Thinking about how much I've thought of you.
You've touched my heart for so many years.
I dont why I feel the way I do.

I wonder sometimes if only you knew me.
I dream about the day I get to hold you.
If you looked in my eyes..what would you see?
If I touched you..Would you feel the way I do?

Is this just an obsession thats out of control?
Am I dreaming these feelings or are they for real?
I'm afraid that when I hold you..I won't be able to let go.
Maybe this my destiny for its fate this love for you I feel.

Love comes...Love goes away.
But when it's real...nothing and no one can ever take it away.
Sometimes I feel crazy...but its not insanity..its not an obessessed fan.
Its a woman who's in love...with a man.

With The Music...I am Free.

When I'm feeling I've lost my mind.

When I feel that life can't get any worse.

I look in my heart and I find

A piece of my soul is in every melody every verse.

My heart melts My soul comes to life.

The pain and saddness withers away.

In all my struggles...My tragedy and strife.

The music finds me...and I know that I'll never fade.

When I write the words...When I lift up my voice in song.

I know that the within the music..I've found where I belong.

I sing for him..I sing for you.

I sing for a love that without one question or doubt is true.

I sing to find my freedom I sing to save my soul.

When I die...I hope that I'm remembered for just one thing.

My love for him...My love for music.

My passion to sing.

When words fail....the music always speaks.

Shanna Marie Behmke AKA JonsHeartSong AKA ShannaSings4Jon

My Wish For Jon

Jonathan,
I wish only for you to get to see this I've written so many now. I hope that you are recovering well, and I knew you'd make it through the surgery ok. You've inspired me to find myself again. I can't thank you enough for that. Your courage and your strength has given me the hope that one day I will face my own fears in life and conquer them. Well If you get to see this I hope that you take my words to heart because I truly do love and admire you. Get well soon!

I have wished and dreamed my whole life long to have one moment...just one song.

To look into your eyes and see you smile at me...that moment would forever set me free.

I never thought in my whole lifetime that a love like this..I would find.

Lost in sweet dreams of you every single night...It's only there I get to sing for Jon Knight.

Will I ever get that chance? Will I ever see the day?

When can hold him in my arms..and what would he say?

I know in my heart that this may never be..but I will not deny the dream.

My wish for you my dear..is for you to find love..and when you do..hold it near.

Don't ever lose hope..keep your faith and courage.

Let not one thing give you heartache or discourage.

I pray for your recovery...as hard as I prayed for your surgery.

For 20 years I've thought of you...

For 20 years..I've loved and admired you...

For 20 years...I've sang only for you.

If you knew me well enough you'd know...this love I have for you is a true and sincere love.

I'm not a crazy fan...I'm just a simple woman...That loves a simple man.

Dear Jon

Dear Jon,

I know you may never see this..You may never know..Just how much I love and admire you so.

To you..I'm just another fan...Just another messager out in twitterland.

I realize that there are millions of girls..women..feeling just the way I do.

If I could band them all together..This is what I'd do.

I'd have them all light a candle..and say a prayer for you.

I know that you worry..I know you are scared.

But that's just what makes you such an amazing man!

You overcame your fears...You dried up all your tears.

Came back to the stage...Steppin 5 once again.

So this is why I do all the I can.

To let you know how special you are..To let you know..that your always in my heart.

You've inspired me to become something more than I thought I could be.

I've overcame my own fears...You've made me feel free!

So Jon, I say this with all of my heart and soul...I will always love you.

And this love will continue to grow.

Everytime I lay my head down to dream...I'm up on stage..Holding your hand...

For its for you....that I sing.

I prayed for God to send me an angel...and he did.

BY: Shanna Marie Behmke

FOR MY LAB LADIES-WITH ALL MY LOVE

I am not without my faults...I am not a perfect being.

I was lost in my own little world...I felt I had no meaning.

My soul had been broken...My heart had stopped beating.

But something happened...A Miracle came my way.

When I found a greater love..Now I seize the day!

My life that seemed ever so drab..Became new and whole again..The day I found the Lab.

People who understand me..Women who never cease to amaze me!

You ladies will never know..What you mean to me.

For there are no words to describe...All this love and gratitude I feel for you inside.

BREAKER BREAKER and TUMBLEWEEDS..All your NKOTB stories.

We sing and we laugh...We Cry and We Fight..

But nothing can stop this...It just too right!

We have our differences...But one thing I know.

No matter what happens..This love will continue to grow.

Friendship like this...Can never die.

You make me laugh...You make me cry.

Moments in our lives that we can share together...

Chatting in the Lab...Always and Forever.

BY: Shanna Marie Behmke

JamminJeanette I look up to you..You're talent amazes me!

Tirza my ddubdog...We gonna keep rockin it all year long!

Jamie my sister..You crack me up! Cause you tell it like is..You don't give a f--k!

Devlz you fill my life with nasty thoughts LOL It's ok I still love you lots!

Kelly-Jessi-BabyGirl I wouldnt trade you in for anything in this world!

For anyone I forget to mention It's not because I don't love you.

When there are so many..It's hard for me to keep up! LMAO I'm old you know!

You're always in my thoughts...Always in my heart.

I Truly, Madly, Deeply...Love You All!!

For Jackie

I know I never knew you..I don't know who you are.

But I will tonight my sister..Wish on your shining star.

You gave so much and it was from love..Now you rest with the Lord above.

I wish I could've known you..Could have seen your smiling face.

But even so my sister..You're memories' not erased.

People may see this..they may even wonder why.

Love can wither to a fiery ember..but the flame of the soul..never dies.

So sleep my sweet sister..and know that for tonight.

I'll dry my tears...Raise my voice and Sing..

For I know you fly upon the angels wing.

BY:Shanna Marie Behmke

ShannaSings4Jon

Marshmellows and Cornpops

V1 DDubdog and CanarayCrack are rockin da block we ain't cutting you no slack.
We got the rhymes..we got da skillz..two BH sistas..keepin it real.
We may sound funny..We sound stupid..we'll shoot an arrow through yo heart just like cupid.
We know how to do it..We know what to do..DDubdog and CanaryCrack's comin for you.
We love our NKOTB..Wave ya hands in da air...Like you a freak! Freak it at 2 in the morning..just don't stop..cuz we love our Donnie D's marshmellows and cornpops.

V2 You say you be hatin on our Donnie D..take it from me..his love comes for free.
DDubdog and CanarayCrack..you mess wit him you gonna get jacked! We don't play..we don't front..we are who we are..we don't give a f--k! Go on and hate..best believe we'll retaliate..with music you thought could never be dropped..marshmellows and cornpops.

CH I say TUMBLE you say WEEDS TUMBLE WEEDS TUMBLE WEEDS We got da flow..and we won't stop...lovin Donnie D's Marshmellow Cornpops

V3 One last verse on a serious note..this aint no laughing matter..this ain't no joke.
We love our guys..and we'll stand tall and strong..we fight for NKOTB We'll keep singing their song.
You like who you want..you get down on da floor..but these two chicks..will rock da BLOCK forever more..DDubdog and CanaryCrack..we gotta go now..but this is a fact..the New Kids On The Block are here to stay..We're gonna keep on hangin tough no matter what the people say.
Danny..Joe...Jordan..and Jon..and DDub baby...ALL NIGHT LONG!

My Prayer For Jon

Well another poem from the mush master LOL I'm sick as hell but this is something I've been wanting to do. I'm rockin the block right now..in fact "single" is on..prob my fav song off the whole cd. I guess because i really connect with it. I'm a single momma I work my ass off..and sure get lonely sometimes. So anyway, here is my prayer for Jon.

This is my prayer for Jon..to let him know he's never alone.

I pray for you tonight..to let you know that it will all turn out right.

God is watching over you..I know that he will pull you through.

I say a prayer for you each and every day..for love and happiness to always come your way.

When you feel lost and alone...just know go back and read this poem.

I know in my heart you saw me once..and for that I can't thank you enough.

When your surgery is over..just keep on hangin tough.

Though I can't really be there..to give you all my love and care.

Look inside your heart and you will find me..I'll always be waiting there.

God gives us blessings...he really does answer prayers.

So I say this again..as I always do.

My sweet Jon...I will always love and admire you.

I only ask God for this one little thing...to protect you and guide you..for you I shall always sing.

BY: Shanna Marie Behmke (ShannaSings4Jon)

I love ya Jon..I can't express that enough..I'm proud of everything you do.

Dreaming about NKOTB

Well, It's 5 am. I'm up and about to get ready for work. I wanted to post this because I had the greatest dream last night! I had a dream that me and the lab girls were at an NKOTB concert. Rockin it out, and having a blast! We all had our lab shirts on that we had talked about. I'm not sure what city or state we where in, all I know is it was awesome! We were all grouped together in the same row, we were very close to the stage. Donnie started talking and looked over and noticed all of us with lab shirts on. He invited us all up on stage! He introduced us as his "LAB" girls and told us how proud he was that we had all become such good friends. He asked us what all our names were and made us turn around and show the back our shirts. The shirts had our twitter names on the back. (sorry girls this is where it becomes MY dream) LOL He chuckled when he saw mine. "Shanna Sings For Jon Huh?" I was embarrassed as hell! "So you gonna sing for Jon tonight?" he said. My stomach was in knots, I wasn't sure what to do! He handed me the mic and told me to sing whatever was in my heart. I looked at the guys and told them all how much I loved them, I took Jon's hand and started to sing. I sang a very short version of "At Last" to him,and afterwards he gave me a great big hug, and a little peck on the cheek. It was so sweet! I hugged each of the guys and thanked them for getting the chance to do that. Oh man, what I would'nt give for that to come true! After the concert we were all invited to come and hang out with the guys and they promised they'd follow each one of us, and that they appreciated such loving and amazing women. And then..I had to wake up!! Well, that was my dream..I wanted to share it with you because I do love each and every one of you girls. I really think you are the best!

Stand Tall..Stand Strong.

VS1 I have always known there'd come a day. When all of my sorrows..would all be washed away. The love I've found in you is remarkable..this love is unforgettable..Its you.
I can't believe I'm standing here with you. Loving me not matter what I do.
I've found a place..that time can't erase..cause all I ever needed was you.

CH I'll stand tall...I'll stand strong..because I finally found a place where I belong.
I will..stand up and fight...no matter how the trials of life wash me away tonight..
I'll stand tall..stand strong...for you.

Vs2 I didnt know where I was going..didn't know just what to do.
Until the day my heart stood still..the day that I found you.
All my life I've waited for this..I will not give up..I always believe in love..Its true.

CH I'll stand tall...I'll stand strong..because I finally found a place where I belong.
I will..stand up and fight..not matter how the trials of life wash me away tonight..
I'll stand tall..stand strong...for you.

And when life seems so lost..and you don't know if you'll make it through..just gather up your courage..you'll know just what to do..If you believe in yourself..love will come to you..nothing is ever as bad as it seems..when stand up and fight...hold onto your dreams.
In my heart is where you'll always belong...Stand Tall..Stand Strong. By: Shanna Marie Behmke

This One's For You

This one is for all the block members. I can't say thank you enough for coming back into my life. I've had alot of bad things happen to me over the past ten years. I'll save you my sob stories, my point is that I came to a point in my life where I had lost my passion for music, writing, and all the other things I used to enjoy, and its because of you that I found that passion again. I feel more free and alive now than I've felt in many years. Put it this way..I've crawled out of the deep, dark hole that I've been hiding in for too damn long. It is my promise to myself that I will find a way to see you guys..hopefully next tour. I've spent the past year taking care of my ailing mother, my grandmother, and trying to be the best mother to my daughter as I can. So anyway, enough of my sob story..This One's For You.

I remember the music. I remember the dance.

I remember seeing you..and feeling my first true romance.

I fell in love for the very first time..you really did blow my mind.

Five guys from Boston, Five Angels God gave us.

I didn't know it then..But I know now I was blessed.

Standing in front of the mirror singing "Please Don't Go"

Pretending I was on stage..Singing with you Joe.

Wishing I was that little girl Donnie was singing to.

Brought to tears..By Jordan singing "I'll be loving you"

Danny's soothing voice..a smile that still make me rejoice.

And Jon..the sweet and shy guy..with an angelic smile.

And now that I'm grown..I'm finding more love than I've ever known.

You always had my heart, I never had one regret.

I knew someday you'd be back..I know we ain't seen nothing yet!

So this journey has just begun..this love will never stop.

You will always be those 5 little boys..those NEW KIDS ON THE BLOCK

You may have gotten older..and moved on to your own lives.

Taking care of your children, your family, and wives.

But the curtain still calls..each and every night.

For its the music that brought you back..Its the music that makes it right.

Though your fans have grown, we moved on too, have famlies of our own.

For a moment we stop and turn the music up..Went back to a place..

where we never have to grown up.

So thank you guys...these words are so few..for nothing can express..

the love I feel for you.

When life brings me down..When I feel like I can't make it through.

I turn up the music...Thats all I have to do.

I go back to that place in front of my mirror..

Hairbrush microphone in my hand.

Singing to my guys..Joe, Danny,Donnie,Jon and Jordan.

There is no greater feeling I've ever felt its true.

So I write down these words..from my heart to you.

If you see this I pray you will see.

That what I write is because I know you all love me.

The tweets..from our five favourite guys..giving us a little piece of your lives.

Thank you guys so much.

By: Shanna Marie Behmke

aka ShannaSings4Jon

For Jon

Well Jon I can't help but write these words. Hell it's great therapy. If you see this..I hope you will understand what I am saying. I'm not a another nutty fan..I say these words from the heart. Maybe someday I'll get to see you and the guys live..maybe even a meet and greet. I wrote a poem for donnie also, which he said he'd read..but if he doesn't it's ok with me. I'm just glad to get to do this. Thank you so much Jon. I love all of you very much. NKOTB FOREVER! PS- They don't call me the Mush Master for nothing! LMAO

People think I'm crazy..People laugh at me.

They just don't understand it..They will never see.

My love for you is genuine and pure..My love for you is real.

I can't explain it..I just know how I feel.

I've admired you since I was small..When I was young and didn't have a care at all.

Sweet dreams of you come to me each and every night.

When I'm holding you..it just feels so damn right.

I'm not a stalker..I'm not a crazy fan.

I'm just a simple woman..In love with a simple man.

I love the way you work..I believe in everything you do.

I am happy you are here..I'm so proud of you.

When the curtain closes..I wonder what you think?

Do you drift away to sleep? Do pour yourself a drink?

When you are up there and see all those pretty faces..screaming your name.

I wonder how you deal with all this craziness and fame.

Even so, I still believe you are the man..you aspire to be.

Maybe someday you'll know..Maybe someday you'll see.

Until then I'll wait..I won't close this door.

I won't give up on you..because that's what love is for.

I am your friend..whenever you need a helping hand.

I'll cry with you..I'll always understand.

So for now I close this..with one final phrase.

I will love you Jonathan Knight..for all the rest of my days.

By: Shanna Marie Behmke

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